. Mass was now growing more “traditional” by the year, and as a result of my openness, I was growing with it. Yet, within the past five years, I have still often found myself defending this “loose” liturgical era from which I had come. How could I shun that which had re-awakened my love for the Eucharist? Now understanding that emotion was not the premier path to God and was indeed shallow on its own, I realized that my mind had also been seeking and growing in knowledge. Was I headed for some sort of balance? Only God could know.